Tuesday, April 09, 2013

Everything Stays the Same

Re: Update on Fulbright Classroom Teacher Exchange Program

Dear Ms. Waterhouse:
We regret to inform you that the funding available from the U.S. Department of State for the academic year 2013-2014 Fulbright Classroom Teacher Exchange Program does not include support for exchanges with the United Kingdom. For this reason, we are not able to provide you with a fellowship for your exchange in the UK.

They go on from there.  It's really a very polite rejection of my application.

So.  I finally know.  After putting all future planning on hold since last October, I finally know where I'll be this summer, this fall, this year and the next.

I do feel some relief from that.  The frustrating part of all of the educational applications I make is the waiting, the apply-in-October/find-out-in-April cycle that government programs operate on.  I am a planner, not just to satiate my control issues but because I take a great deal of comfort in looking forward to what I have planned, to my next adventure.

And I think that's where most of my disappointment is coming from now.  Now I know that everything's going to stay the same.  Same job, same house, same speech meets and drama plays and cycles of crazy-busy months after months of gaping nothingness.  It's a good life, but I was really hoping for a change.

Now I know.

1 comment:

  1. That's disappointing -- I'm sorry to hear it.